My Real-Life Love Story

"Sexuality becomes a driving force with a great deal of sublimation in it." Frye page 183

I can honestly say I have never been in love until the last couple months. It is such an exciting and painful experience to go through. Of course, my love story isn't really as happy and fairytale like. It all started when I met this girl (Linda). She is gorgeous. She is sweet. She is funny. She is very smart. And she makes me smile. ****ATTRACTION****

So, we start dating. Then I find out she was in a relationship this past summer with this other girl (Chris) and they broke up because this other girl got a different girlfriend (Mel). Well Linda and I started dating and she has met my entire family and she spent all the holidays with us. I was completely head over heals in love with her. I don't know how it happened or even when. I just knew. Then she surprises me one night. She is crying on the couch when I come downstairs. When I ask what is wrong, she says she is not in love with me and that she is in love with Chris. Chris had just broken up with Mel and wanted to get together with Linda. It felt like someone was ripping out my chest. **** CONFLICT****

I have to say that I am not a cryer. I am the kind of person who bottles it all in until I am alone. Then I let it all out. Well, that night, what I regretted most, was allowing her to see me cry. I could not help it. I could not control anything. And that is what love does to someone. *****EMOTIONS****

We decide to take things slower and spend a few days apart. The very next day, she calls me up and says she brought me lunch and she was canceling all her plans that day, so we could go to my place and shoot gophers (that is my favorite activity). She also wanted to stay at my place and have a fun evening with just the two of us. I was SO confused. Not even twelve hours had gone by and she was acting like nothing ever happened. I assume everything is okay. Life is now great again (except the fact my girlfriend is in love with someone else).

Here comes the very strange part. My best friend (Crystal) is a happily married woman with four beautiful little children. We met in church and are now inseparable. Well, we have been hanging out a lot and I tell her all my problems. Out of no where, Crystal thinks she is in love with ME. Now things are getting even more weird. Chris is in love with Mel, Linda is in love with Chris, I am in love with Linda, and Crystal is in love with me. Holy Crap! ****DRAMA****

Crystal just called me up to ask if she could just kiss me and then she would get it out of her system. ****LAUGHTER****

Meanwhile, my girlfriend does not even want me to touch her. I am so confused. I think I should tell Linda about what Crystal said, but I promised Crystal I wouldn't say anything. If she is questioning her sexuality, then I want to help her. But I don't want to ruin any relationship in the mean time. ****APPARENT DEATH****

I have put a boundary up against Crystal and am taking my beautiful girlfriend out on a date this weekend. We are slowly rekindling the flame and it is incredible. I am still madly in love with her and hope she can soon fall in love with me. We are making an effort to spend more time apart and do our own things, yet still have time for the two of us. It is really hard with school and work, but we are making it work. ****HAPPY-ISH ENDING****